Living Life with a Purpose
By: Brittany Horchner
Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thoughts
As a little kid, I can remember thinking my purpose on earth was to become a veterinarian. The funny thing is that is not at all what I think my purpose is now. When we are younger, we tend to think of our purpose in terms of the job we’ll have when we grow up, a sport we play, friends we have, etc. But as we grow up our view of purpose tends to change. Well, at least it did for me.
When I was in eighth grade, I experienced a year like never before. I lost many of my friends and was picked on repeatedly. It was a very long year. Throughout the year, I got to a very bad place, where I was so low that I had suicidal thoughts. I thought life would be better without me. Before I go on, I want to pause for a second. I want to speak specifically to anyone who is in that low of a place. I want to remind you that better days are ahead and that your life has a purpose. Please stay to see what hope lies ahead. Also, remember that you are so worth loving.
Some of you may wonder what my story has to do with purpose, and my answer would be ‘everything’. When I was at my lowest state, I did not think I mattered or that I had a purpose. Despite my personal views in that season, I decided to stay and see what lay ahead. Through staying, I discovered my purpose. Ultimately, my purpose is to know Jesus and share Him with others. My avenue to live that purpose out on earth has been found in my pain. My purpose is to share my story with others, provide others hope, and sit with people in their pain. When I am doing that is when I find the most joy.
What is it that brings you joy? What is your purpose?
Sometimes one’s purpose is found in past pain. I know mine was. I encourage you to take some time to reflect on your life and what your purpose is. If you are unsure, reach out to some trusted friends to see the different things that spark a fire for you. By doing these things, it can help you to see the value of staying even when life gets hard and challenging. When one discovers a purpose for their value, they can lean in and work through trials better as they know their why.
